Queer VS Queens: round one

Please note i'm NOT hating on queens or anyone effeminate (that much) here. My thoughts are purely my own and supposedly not of others... (i'm 'not' saying that with great cheek)

''Why do i behave the way i do?'' This is a question i was asked recently by some random queen friend of mine. ''you look straight but you're not, how come you don't wear tights to show off your arse? You're so dull!'' he asked. Silly boy! I'm happy with how i dress! Why are you hating on me? Shindwe!

I gave up years ago in high school pretending to be heterosexual when clearly i'm not! Not that i'm outta the closet (hanging on the open doors of the closet perhaps?) but any person with intellect can tell i'm queer despite how i dress. Yes its quite normal, no tights or tank tops. Just normal wear! And by normal i mean khakis and polo shirts or shorts and a tee... So the way i behave around my queer friends is how i behave around heterosexual people.

And you know what?

They really don't care. Or if they do, at least they have the courtesy to respect me and let me be. They don't question my behaviour. When they do i just reply ''i'm just a positive minded person!'' (i try to be) Is it the society i'm in or? Hmmm no... I'm in a campus that has people from all walks of life and they don't seem bothered. Catholic church clergy included. If they are then they aren't saying it in front of me. My point is this, as long as i'm not screaming in people's faces about my being queer (wearing funny clothes, jewellery and/or make up) they really don't have issues with it! At least from my experience so far... Unlike you lot who go clubbing, get beaten by bouncers, threatened by women, insulted by bus/ matatu conductors etc etc... Your attitudes and mannerisms irritate people, even your conservative queer people can't handle y'all anymore!

Yes, there are homophobes who throw really dirty comments towards all classes of queer people. What do i do? Ignore them! Or taunt them back when i'm in the mood. But note this, less hater comments are thrown at you when you dress sensibly! Being queer isn't a choice but living like one kinda is. You make decisions to go out there to purchase those stuff and flaunt them! You DON'T make the decision to be queer though! Fine, if you're a queen and you feel more pretty in effeminate wear do as you please. Wear hot pants. Apply lip gloss. Really do anything you want, but Some of us are comfy and happy the way we are... in normal everyday, casual wear! Please don't judge me and others because we're bottom and we don't dress up girly. Its just mean... so stop bullshitting others with snide comments! You lot don't want to know whats said behind your backs... Wangare Maathai dresses better even.

Oh and by the way queens, you ACTUALLY move places IN society when you conform WITH society just a little bit... Not every queen is bad or evil or mean, there's a small percentage who're ACTUALLY nice! Though I'm not even sorry that i'm posting this! TONE DOWN WITH YOUR ATTITUDES!

|back to black-Amy Winehouse|

lately...

Its been one of those weeks...Campus life is just so busy nowadays, I look forward to weekends again! And my assessment tests are about to start. "oh these papers are your CATs for Tuesday!" my lecturer said on Thursday. Really? hmmm... So this week has been interesting.

On Monday I took my schoolmate s for a blind date. That blind date asked him for booty! (what?) "I'm not a common prostitute for you to call, meet and expect me to bend for you!" said s. Oh, I was his backup. Incase anything happens im a heartbeat away. So this foolish guy swallowed. And went. We went to biiiiiiitch about it then we laughed! University is an interesting place. How they got his number I don't know...

Friday! I was looking forward to meeting fabulous m with small p and m for coffee... Sir laugh-alots boyfriend wanted to join! (shock!) so i'd invited him to come. It rained again. It rained on him. He walked into the coffee house. He looked so sexy! (sigh...) he sat. Naturally fabulous m analyzed him. I know he's shy when people he's not familiar with are around. His buddy was coming over as well. So we all chatted, f coming around as well... Because I was going for dinner with my sister and emo i had to leave early. He (nani's boyfriend) wanted to see me the next day. Agreed! Dinner went well, we went to this lovely Chinese restaurant in lavington. It would be in this restaurant where i'd see emo for the last time in a loooong while. The land of kangaroos awaits him. I will miss him. Alot. And then my sis and her friend mention some straight guy's houseparty. Mind you I had to be up at 6am to go for some I.t conference at westgate the next day. The party was SO BORING! The host was cute-ish. The rest were pot heads. Magic moments lemon remix did keep me company though. And the Osborne's. And engen is the only fuel station thats actually open all day and night. Got home at 2am...

Saturday Hangover! Shit I woke up 6am and my head... Do not mix magic moments and viceroy! BAD! I dressed and went. I got to the conference at 8 something. I was the first one there. And the youngest. It was about Twitter. It was fun! Made new friends... It ended at midday. Afterward, I went to meet him (nani's boyfriend still) for lunch. In town. I ate and he didn't. Which made me feel fat. He said he was meeting sir laugh-alot that afternoon. Apparently to talk. From the way he said it, this was not going to be an ordinary talk. "I'm leaving him. he's not expecting it." he said.

OH MY GOODNESS!

I left after lunch was had. I did NOT want to be in the vicinity of sir laugh-alot. Too bad he saw me. Luckily I was on my way out with a friend. who'd appeared two minutes earlier. I even went home after taking my friend shopping! All these thoughts were in my head... Big p was ill that week so I went to visit him... Then I went home, ate and slept. I'm still curious as to what happened between sir laugh-alot and the boyfriend...

Did they end things?

|you're half a world away, but in my mind I whisper every single word you say--->ocean lab-satellite|

How to end a month: January

I've come from one of those legendary weekends that leave a mark! Literally!

Friday saw me taking emo and fabulous s shopping. Emo leaves Kenya on Saturday. Emo needs random clothes. Gikomba? Yes. I dressed down. They didn't. The result? I felt soooo unattractive! That feeling lasted the whole damn day because its friday, its end-month and people have cash! Except me. I survived on 200 bob! (cheer for me now, that was painful seeing people spend 10k, and me not buying shit) Even small p and F looked amazing at friday coffee! I got home and slept...

Saturday was my sister's birthday. At her dinner, she had a water gun! Which landed in some random girls hands who chased me...until i FELL. Oh. My. Goodness. I fell down and slid like a penguin on ice! Needless to say she shot me. I limped back to the table... I have a really bruised arm, a bruised waist, and two bruised knees! Oh and a cut hand! And i was going out that night! Ouch! They still hurt! 4 bandages later i was at gypsies. For the first time. Ever. Big p, A, T, fabulous m, spec d, diplomatic one, and sir j were the group i was in. At first i was sceptical about the place, then i had fun after a few beers. That dancefloor was packed! Good fun! And then some Asian fellow wanted to take me home! Ati nini? NO! He was a ''D.I.N.O.S.A--you are a dinosaur!'' (listen to dinosaur by kesha, fun song!) he didn't even ask politely... Oh, old flame and his boyfriend were there. I have no problem with them! They look awesome together, both being tall and all... My goodness i'm so friendly hehe... Got home at 4 am. I was dropped at my estate's main gate. The watchmen were having a little bonfire. My high little self had a whole 5 minute conversation with them! ''leo ni kuruka fence'' which translates to ''i'm going to jump over the fence''. Did i? HELL NO, that fence is tall! I dialled-an-ayah...

Sunday! No electricity thanks to those wankers at kenya power and lighting company. More like kenya parafin and candles... Arses! I woke up with a glowing hoop on my arm. Its bright green. Where did it come from? Hmmm.... I slept the whole morning. Hangover? Yes. Rocky mountains, cosmo's,malts and lord knows what else i had are/were damaging...headache...oh and pains from them bruises... Emo came to spend the afternoon. Chaaaaatted till he left. Then i slept again...elec came back at 9pm! Shindwe! I ate and slept.

Now its February. Valentines day is around the corner. So are spec d's and A's birthdays. I think i have a date with someone's boyfriend as well... Hmmm... Anyhoo y'all have a great month! I don't want to know what this month will be like... OH, my marketing lecturer has a red bmw bike. I just saw him riding it into campus! That is random. Very random...

|air traffic-owl city|

Rib cracker: Kenyan resolutions 2010

I Watched a funny play on thursday called 'kenyan resolutions 2010' which is a heart strings kenya production. Highlights? They had two gay scenes there!

The play was about all the drama thats happened to kenya in the month of January. And late december. Oh yeah, the first gay scene is when a neighbour comes who's a TOTAL queen ( a queen is the girliest, most feminine kind of gay person) to talk to a girl about this philipino soap called ''storm over paradise''. That series is loved by mothers, daughters, ayahs and queens. It was rather hilarious! And theeeen there was the dating scene where there were couples in a restaurant, gay one included. In that scene, they were in the middle of dinner then a robbery happens! After the robbery the gay couple leave, the passive one saying 'screw this, we're going to get married in the uk!', which means that they were depicting those two kenyan guys in London... Wow.

At least we're being acknowledged in theatre...its a step for gays in society. Now if people would only stop pretending to be straight and some unity in the gay community happened... By the way i'm totally attending their next play!

|happy ending-Mika|

Reasons why i won't slice:

I'm not going to 'slice' him... I just won't! Mmmh mmmh... No.

I've been giving it much thought, and i've decided i'll just let all this be. If he wants me he'll come. If he doesn't, well, too bad! Life moves on. I've refused to give in to my friends calls of slicing. Reasons why i won't do that:

1. It's just wrong. Its not right to rush someone to make a decision o whether they'd date you or leave their man/woman for you...

2. It would bring me too much homodrama! Imagine when sir laugh-alot catches wind of whats happening or is told he was left for me? Not cool.

3. I have class, respect for myself and others and their properties, and dignity! Typical bitches go and steal steal steal! I'm soooo not that... I will wait for him to decide whatever. I shan't go robbing people of their spouses. The image that is carried by such actions is not a good one! Not at all...

4. I believe in karma! Who happens to be a total bitch! Do something wrong to someone and something bad will happen to you. Twice as hard! Karma works like that.

5. Guilt? I wont lie, i will feel guilty if i snatched him from sir laugh-alot, who's a friend of mine. Friends don't do that to each other last time i checked. Its a terrible feeling too!

And finally,

6. If its meant to be it'll happen on its own accord. I leave him to make the necessary decisions. I will NOT influece him to take any action. Why? Humans have a free will to do as they like...

Time is a key variable here. They say good things happen to those that wait. Is there a there a time frame for him? None. I'm here, i'm not going anywhere, i'm not in a rush to get into a relationship, and i definately will not be someones side-dish. As much as ''the heart speaketh of what it desires'', sometimes those desires have to be denied! For image, moral and ethical purposes. The heart can be such a spoilled brat at times...

And life moves on...

|Am i dreaming-Kat Deluna|